Spiritual Zing

It's Wednesday evening, and I went to have my treatment done this morning and all was well in the world of Mr. Acupuncturist. We had the usual chat about my week, how things were going and how the new herbs were working. I filled him in on my "movement" and he was a delighted for me as I was, that I went to the toilet twice in one day, on Saturday. I told him how energized I instantly felt. But that it was all on the inside and that I still wasn't able to get it out, because of being weak.

He explained what had happened.. My spiritual zing is or spiritual energy has been boosted. This means that my spleen and heart are starting to work more in harmony with each other and that the balance in my body is returning.. doesn't that sound beautiful..my heart and spleen are working in harmony..wow..
My spleen is getting stronger which means my body is observing even more nutrients from my food, than it had been doing up to a month ago. This is why I felt so full of beans over the weekend and it's why I felt so strong and nourished as well. My spiritual zing will give me the determination I need to start working on my physical zing. But the spiritual zing isn't constant yet. It comes and it goes. Some days I feel I can concur the world (that's on the inside) and other days I just don't care one way of the other and I feel low and drained. Whenever this feeling comes up, of concurring the world, Mr. Acupuncturist told me that I should use it to do light physical exertion, in order to build back up my physical energy. Because that's what I need. I have to push the boundaries, he reckons. Once my spiritual zing becomes more stable then I'll physically be getting stronger which will keep on boosting my determination. The spirit of "concurring the world" will be stimulated again which will give me more overall energy..it's like a circle that expands on the good days and shrinks slightly on the bad to expand again just that little more I'm up again and to shrink a little again when I'm down again.. on and on it goes until I'm back to full health.

He then told me that my weight gain will continue to go from top to bottom..so first my face and top half of my body and my legs will be last on the list..(unfortunately, they're the only part of me that I really want to get bigger and stronger).. I've been noticing it myself as well.. the top half of me is expanding but the bottom-half remains bony and weak. My back is stronger and leg are weaker. My stomach has a layer of fat and my bottom is still bony with no muscle or fat to speak of.. It's strange. I probably look like an ice-cream cone.. Big and round on the top, getting thinner towards the bottom. O well, I unfortunately don't have any control over where the weight piles on..it just happens and I have to make peace with my huge egghead.

The treatment itself, was quite relaxing. I didn't float, I didn't fly, but a lot of stress was released. He left the needles in extra long, just to give me a longer time-out. He put a needle in between my eyes.. This was the first time he stuck a needle in my head. Very strange, but head was tingling nicely, as was the rest of me. Numbness and spurts of energy shooting through my core like there was no tomorrow as well as thoughts of my body starting to work in harmony and starting to do as it's supposed to do.. Feeling healthy and trying not to feel bad about it.

He said his favourite words to me again when I was leaving.. "you're face is REALLY looking good.." The dreaded sign of glowing health is what he was talking about. I didn't let it make me feel bad, I took it on-board and thanked him.. Because it was a compliment. He means well and he told also told me that I should take more credit for what I've been going through. He said I deserve to feel good and I should let myself. I know he's right, but it doesn't make it easier. It probably just makes it harder, because I know that I'm not doing good by still being so hard on myself and still not being happy with what I'm doing and still feeling I've not suffered enough..when I'm low I beat myself up about being low which makes me even lower. It's like the saying goes: Kick them when they're down..Or when implying it to myself..Kick myself when I'm down..How annoying.. I hope it will get less with time..which I'm sure it will do.. But until then, I just take each day as it comes..