Needles galore

It's Friday morning. Yesterday afternoon I had acupuncture and it was very welcome.
We had a usual little chat before the treatment. He thought I was looking well, again, or even better than last week. I personally, didn't know how the could have been possible, but he must know what he's talking about, more than I do.

I had to sum up the whole weekend, in the space of 10 minutes.. Not that there was any rush or anything, but that's just how it planned out. I told him how worried I was about being so exhausted, even after resting so much and that I felt the trapped pressure in my chest. I told him about my heart not feeling out of sync and about the "mantra" I was using to get through Saturday. He had something to say about them all and they ended up all being related.

He reckoned the exhaustion I felt, was because my body's natural flow, which had been getting back to normal very slowly over the past weeks, was disturbed. The small amount energy I did have, was going to all the wrong places. In a perfect world it would have been used for me to get over the journey on Thursday and to feel less tired. But from the moment I left the house Thursday afternoon, I was having to deal with so many different things and think and focus on so much that this caused my body to prioritize. I needed all my energy to be able to handle the overwhelming feeling instead of the physical exertion. If I hadn't been overwhelmed, my exhaustion on Friday night, wouldn't have been so huge.

The pressure and trapped feeling I had all Saturday was because of being overwhelmed. And because my flow was still out-of-whack that the pressure and stress I was under, mentally, was physically stuck in my chest. That trapped feeling I felt on Saturday I tried so hard to get rid of by telling myself "I'm safe, nothing bad will happen, the food is okay, nobody is judging me, people around me are taking care of me..". I was trying to convince myself of all these things, just to make myself feel better and for the pressure to leave me alone. Unfortunately I didn't succeed. Mr. Acupuncturist said it was so deeper than that.. The only thing that might have released it a bit would have been a good long walk out in the fresh air. But that was impossible, seeing as though I was so tired.

He took a look at my tongue and he could see how much emotional stress I'd been under. That was so strange. He looked at me and said in a way that nearly made me want to break down because I could see he felt so sorry for me: "It all made you very upset". Or in other words..you've been crying your eyes out all weekend and you're still not fully back to normal because of it all. And he was right.

During the treatment I felt like a cushion they stick pins into (not sure of the exact name of such a thing). I didn't count the amount of needles he stuck into me. But it was more than usual. He put some in my chest, which was he'd never done before. This was to release the pressure that had built up over the weekend. I told about my heart feeling strange so he stuck another one in my chest, just for good measure.

I was only lying on the table for 30 minutes, but it was nice and relaxing. It wasn't as long as it normally would be, but not to worry. He obviously knows what's best.
The chat only lasted for a short time, but I was so much wiser afterwards. It's amazing how it all fits together. All the different feelings I was having over the weekend, all had a reason of their own but were linked to another either physical or mental issue that I was trying to deal with. The human body continues to amaze me as does Mr. Acupuncturist who can tell me so much. By him listening to me telling him how I think I am, he in turn tells me exactly how I am, how it should be and how we both want it to be.