1 little boost of energy

The supplements give me all this nutrition
It's doing me more good than bad,
Treating my body the way it deserves
So then why are they making me feel so sad?

They aren't abusing my body
Not to the extremes that I have done,
They are making me healthy person
So then why am I scared of what is to come?

This 1 little boost of energy
Is more than I deserve to gain,
I can prove that I can live on air
But hang on, isn't that why I'm now in pain?

They say the body needs it
Otherwise a person cannot exist,
I'm intelligent enough to know this
But disciplined too much and so I can resist.

Training myself in such a way
That it can live on next to nothing,
Months of hard work and obedience
Is now taking its' toll on my entire body.

Learning to eat again
How did I let it get this far?
What have I done to myself?
Will the answer leave a permanent scar?