Cadburys Dark Chocolate Flavored Flake

I went into the shop yesterday, with my cousin Sandra.. after dreaming and talking about food and chocolate. I had to get my "fix".. if that's what you could call it..

All I wanted to do was drool, looking at the chocolate bars.. the selection of cadburys and galaxy bars.. And resist.. I wasn't intending on buying any.. even if I wasn't going to eat it. I just wanted to look and resist temptation. It felt great just looking at it all. For a few seconds I considered buying one. Sandra suggested I buy one, but I don't HAVE to eat it. But, no, I didn't. And then I saw heaven in a wrapper.. A DARK FLAKE. They usually only have milk chocolate flake bars, but OH MY GOD, they have dark chocolate flavored ones now as well..

I was drooling. And was so tempted...
All night the vision of that Flake was on my mind. It didn't take much effort for me to recall the taste either. Dark chocolate is so rich, it gives you the ultimate chocolate buzz/experience and taste.. All you need is just one small piece.. that's all..

When will i be able to go into a shop and buy a dark chocolate flavored Flake? Why was it such a big deal? Is it because I know, once I start a bar of chocolate, that I will end up binging.. I will end up overeating? But the longer I wait to eat it, won't the urge to binge get even worse? Don't they say, that when people are on strict diets, they should eat a small treat now and then, to feed the cravings? Isn't that the best way to control binging?

The last time I ate some chocolate was the first week in June (4 maltesers.. not bags of course..). For some people that might not seem like a long time.. for some maybe it seems like forever.. it just depends on what you're used to I suppose.

If I were to buy the dark chocolate flavored Flake, I would leave it in the press, and just constantly resist. I would analyze if and when to take a bite. I would worry that I might not be able to resist temptation. I would feel strong if I were able to resist it, and I would hope that someone else, here at home, wouldn't be able to resist (like my little brother sean) and that it would be eaten, just to put me out of my misery. So I reckon it isn't such a good idea to buy a the chocolate, because I'll only be listening to Anna. I will have control and I will feel strong. So it's best for me to wait until I know I can enjoy it without feeling like a failure and feeling like shit.

How did such a simple thing like eating a chocolate bar become such a big deal? I cannot wait for the day to come, that I will walk into the shop and pick up that dark chocolate flavored Flake, pay for it, eat it and enjoy it.. It will be heaven.