Distrated during Breakfast

I woke up this and I felt hungry. And that was absolute sh*t..
I really didn't want to feel these hunger pains.. It was only 8 o clock in the morning and I had my supplement last night at 09.30pm!!!
How was this possible? This was not making me happy at all..

I could hear Anna, she was there, in my hear, giving out to me.. I could hear her saying.. "Who the hell do you think you are, acting on these hunger pains.. push yourself to the max.. you can go so much longer, enjoy the hunger pains, and DO NOT ACT ON IT".. But I had to, and the worst thing was, that I also had to eat my yogurt, straight away, because or else, I wouldn't be able to fit in all my food today.. Sh*t!!
Now what was I going to do?
AND I had to take a full pot of yogurt.. yesterday this wasn't a problem. But today, it's was awful.. Because I didn't want to eat, and Anna was there and I needed to eat more for breakfast than I have been doing for the past week. I made such a big mistake, by cutting down my portions.. especially on days like today, I have made it harder for myself..
AND to add to it all.. everyone was around me.. Everybody was looking.. Everybody was awake and in the kitchen.. usually I'm alone with me and my yogurt and that's just the way I like it.. Nobody timing me, nobody looking at me, nobody talking to me, nobody observing me..

But today, oh everyone was around.. And talking and my "ritual" was broken.. which made it harder for me to get this full portion of yogurt down. I sit with my book, read 2 pages and take a bite. And that's just how I eat it, and I enjoy it, and I would usually finish it within around an hour. But today, people were talking at me.. I was constantly being distracted. So I was out of my rhythm.. It was gone, it therefore took me 1 hour and 45 minutes to eat it. This then has consequences for the rest of the day, trying to fit everything in..
I wanted to plan to have my first supplement at 11 o clock.. But then it's a half an hour after I just finished my yogurt, and I'm still full..
It's so not fair and it pisses me off...

Then, I'm having my shower, just pottering about, and my legs aren't as tired as they were the past few days... F*ck!!! oh no, I can hear Anna, giving out to me.. "Who the hell do you think you are, taking it easy? Go on, do something, make your legs sore, you can do it, get yourself going.. you're not supposed to feel fine.. get you're act together Niamh and don't you dare ignore me!"..

So what am I supposed to do? I really don't know.. I need to do lots of stuff now, be productive.. keep myself busy.. My whole day has now been muddled up all because people were around me when I was eating my breakfast, even though when I woke up this morning, I knew that Anna was there already, once I felt the hunger pains.. How weak am I to act on these pains? How weak is my body, wanting food.. How bad am I.. Sorry Anna for not listening to you..