Obesity versus Anorexia

Sitting in the doctor's waiting room..
A girl, suffering from obesity.
What did she think, when I walked in?
What did I think, when she stood up?
Two people, dealing with different problems.
Problems that are 2 opposites.
Which problem would be easier to deal with?
I found myself wondering.
At this moment in time, would I prefer to be obese?
Would I prefer to be 20 kilos overweight instead of underweight?
Was she happy in her own skin and just naturally large?
What did she think, when she saw me?
Did she see anorexic written all over me?
Would she rather be in my shoes, if she had the choice?
Maybe she didn't think of me as being ill, just naturally small?
Maybe I looked normal in her eyes.
She probably didn't think anything when she saw me.
So why am I analyzing it so much?
Probably because people judge her the same as they do me.
Either over eating..or under eating..
People despise you for it.
Both extremes are unnatural.
For someone to suffer from one of the other, there must something wrong.
Something massively wrong, and there is.
That's the sad thing about it.
But I don't care what people think.
I'm not self conscious of how I look.
I don't see a skinny person in the mirror, so it's oke.
For obese people, is it the same?
Do they see what other people see?
Or do they see what they have led themselves to believe?
Are they an unhappy soul trapped in an unhealthy body?
Just like I am?
That wasn't a question, that was a statement.
I am an unhappy soul, trapped in an unhealthy body.
For some reason these 2 go together.
A light bulb is now switching on in my brain..
A healthy body and soul are vital to live life fully.

Being obese or anorexic.. it's not a matter of which illness to choose.
It's a matter of getting to the core of where this unhappiness comes from in order for body and soul to become strong and healthy.