Hungry for life

Every bite I take, I wish it was my last
My stomach doesn't and will digest it fast
I'm scared when I eat because I know I'll want more
And I need to react and I can no longer ignore

To get better I must eat if my stomach rumbles or not
But I'm scared to overeat and slowly loose the plot
Because the hungrier I get the more I'll need to eat
And without me wanting this, I'll be turning to meat

I'm so hungry for life and craving to win this fight
I don't know how to feed myself this dream I have in sight
I was never ever wanting to again feel hungry for food
But hunger plus food equals a life in my own good mood

I'm fighting with myself and know I have to feel
I never imagined that reacting to hunger wouldn't appeal
Why does it scare me?.. I don't want to feel anymore fear
I just want to enjoy my food without Anna in my ear

It's confusing, frustrating and makes me feel weak
Anna can therefore make my days never-ending and bleak
I hate her so much for taking everything away
And for wanting me to always neglect and punish Fay

Depriving myself of food is preventing myself to live
The goodness the soul can take and that food will always give
But reacting to my hunger-pains causes other things to rise
Things that scare me and things that I despise

I'm so tired and really want to eat without going mad
I don't want to always feel so guilty, so fat and so bad
I'm so hungry for life, my insides are bursting to be set free
But I'm so scared to feel the hunger that I need to just be "me"