Two Chapters

A day on the outside, spent looking in
Then not being on the inside, feels like a sin
A day without a worry, just being me
And not dwelling on events, and feeling free

Two parts to my life, two major extremes
One part a struggle, the other a dream
Living two chapters, one against two
Just to be aware of what it is I must do

Keeping a balance, just to keep me sane
I shouldn't fight it, it's the rules of the game
Reality for a moment, but isn't every moment real?
Just not always realizing, that I always must deal

A day on the outside, being happy and fine
Forgetting the inside and living a life that's mine
Choosing what I want, be it bad or good
Trying never to resist, even when I feel I should

No worrying, no doubting, just living, just being
But forcing and stressing, Not enjoying, not seeing
This is me stepping, This is me progressing,
The balance is there, and it's all a blessing..