Bored

I'm so tired of it all.
Everything..
You name it, I'm tired of it.
I'm tired of my daily routine
Tired of thinking about food
I don't want to worry anymore
I don't want to be in Ireland anymore
I sick of not being around my mates
I hate the weekends
I hate missing out on life
I'm a bore and I loathe it
It's so frustrating
It's not what I want
It's not who I want to become
When can this end?
When can my day not revolve around food?
Why does it have to be like this?
I'm sick of worrying whenever I'm not worried
I'm tired of constantly wanting for figure out things
Figuring out things, when there's nothing to figure out
Creating troubles and problems where there aren't any
I'm sick of my dreams just being dreams
I want to be my own person
I want to live my own life
I want to do what I want
I want to be where I want to be
I'm tired of wanting to prove myself
I don't know what I'm trying to prove
I don't know who I'm trying to prove it to
I'm sick of my mood being analyzed by everyone
I just want to be left alone
I don't want people to have certain expectancies from me
Why should I have to live up to that
It makes me feel so sh*t
I hate it all
I'm forcing things and I shouldn't
The sky is blue so I should enjoy it
Who says? Everyone I guess..
"Niamh is doing so well"
"She's back to normal"
"Get her out in the sunshine"
Leave me alone!
It's all too much
It's running away with me
I can't keep up
It's forcing me
It's pressurizing me
When I'm struggling enough trying to let myself "be"..
Is this day over yet?