The Questionair - 01-11-08

A book I'm reading right now, has given me an idea, as to how to look at my situation right now. I woke up this morning and it was the first thing that came to mind.. Evaluation through a questionair.. it might sound strange, but I'm reading a funny detective book at the moment, and everything is through files, questions and interviews.. So here it goes..

My relationship towards food, as it stands today..

-Am I able to enjoy food?---Yes
-Do I look forward to my meals?---Yes
-Are my portions proper sizes?---Yes
-Do people around me eat more?---No
-Would I be physically able to skip a meal?---No

-Do I feel hungry on a regular basis?---Yes
-Am I obeying my hunger, daily?---No
-Am I scared of feeling hungry?---Yes
-Do I feel guilty whenever I obey my hunger?---Yes
-Do I feel guilty whenever I ignore my hunger?---Yes

-Would I still want to skip a meal?---Yes
-Am I therefore still pretending that I'm wanting food?---Yes
-Do I feel sick whenever I don't eat enough?---Yes
-Have I skipped a meal in the last 2 weeks?---No
-Would I want to have muesli for my lunch or dinner?---No

-Is dinnertime as awful as months ago?---No
-Do I still feel conscious when I eat at home?---No
-Can I talk about what I eat?---No
-If I eat something that isn't on my food-plan, do I feel guilty?---Yes
-Do I still dream about forbidden-food?---Yes

-Do I feel fat?---Yes
-Is my weight more important than my happiness?---No
-Am I worried about my weight?---Yes
-Does a high weight or a low weight, make me a better person?---No
-Would I like to know my weight?---No

-Do I deserve food?---Yes
-Do I need food?---Yes
-Can I live my life without eating?---No
-Can I see and feel the benefits of eating properly?---Yes
-Does admitting to all these good signs make me guilty?---Yes

Last but not least:
-Will I stick to my treatment until all the answers to these questions reflect a healthy mind, body and soul?---Definitely