The throbbing heart

Being driven by the head or by the heart? Doing things as they feel good according to the most important organ in the body.. the debate about whether it's the brain or the heart.. We can do things from day to day, things that can be either controlled by what our heads are telling us or by what our hearts are telling us.

The most vital organ of the human body is the heart. If it stops, we stop. Without it, there is no life. Without limbs, without muscle, without sight, without kidneys.. we can still exist and be here. We still have life. But once the heart stops..it's over. In the chest, is where it all takes place. It's where the emotions are felt and where our deepest joys and sorrows can arise. It's where expansiveness can occur and it's where emptiness can be found. Within the chest is where we feel anxiety and it's where we feel our nerves. It's also the place from which our passion arises. Passion for a certain life, passion for a certain person, passion for a certain expression, passion for all..

The heart is the place that should be refuelled. We should cherish it, nourish it and never ever take it for granted. It deserves nutrition, it deserves oxygen. Without giving the heart what it needs, we can never be fully aware of what it's capable of and we will never fully use it to the best of it's ability. We'll not recognize what feeling is there to be felt. Whether it's loneliness, fulfilment, grief or love. It deserves our love and attention and it deserves to be treated right. Without giving this to our hearts, how can we expect it to give to us, what we expect of it?

A heart means life - life is the soul - the soul is the person - the person is you. Switching on and becoming aware of this fact and realizing that life is being lived by you as a person with a beautiful soul, and is given to you and made possible by this machine inside your chest, will not only help to live, breath and operate according to the feeling felt by the heart but it will also lift the barriers that might have come down and forced you to never properly let the feelings that have been brewing inside your soul take on the purpose they were meant for... to feel what it's like to live according to who you really are, deep down. The person underneath.

Choosing to live life through the heart alone, might seem unrealistic, immature and off-the-wall. But why should it be? If a feeling doesn't feel right, if it's feel wrong and if there's that distinct gut-feeling that everybody has come across one time or another, then listening to that feeling, is living life through your heart. Acting on this feeling is the right thing to do. The feeling and instinct isn't there for nothing. It's there to warn you that what you're head is telling you to do, isn't what you believe in. Your head is being rational, sensible and it's doing whatt's expected of you and often can be influenced by society and the world we live in.

Sometimes the head and heart can by in-synch. You're doing something sensible and rational and it feels right, deep down. It feels good and there's no voice or no feeling arising within you, trying to warn you that this isn't what you should be doing. If a person knows that there's that feeling and that it serves a purpose and if a person choses to learn to hear it and act accordingly, then wouldn't that save the head from being fuzzy, sore, wrecked and destraught?

A pain in heart or a pain in the head? Both can be felt, and really quite often. But which one is better and which one is worse? What is the purpose behind each pain? There's always a reason. Crying for what the head has caused, comes from the heart. Just like crying for what the heart has caused. In both situations the tears come from the same place, but have a different trigger. The head can start playing tricks that lead you to believe that it knows best. It has the power to control all and it will if you let it..

I let Anna inside my head. I let her control my every hour..day and night. She wanted to rule all and take over my heart and therefore destroy my soul. I'm learning to live and to be driven by my heart and by what feels right. I can't live according to what my head is telling me is rational, mature and expected of me. Because, right now, that's the place that Anna is clinging to. She's not in my soul, she's not in my heart, she's not in my feeling. She wants to be, but she's not. I thought she once was but I've learned she isn't. She'll still do her best to play tricks on me and control my decisions, my choices, my behaviour and my overall thoughts. But I'm not her. She's not me. She's in my head and not in my heart. We cannot be in-synch, we never were and we never will be.

Everything I do, needs to come from the heart. The only things that feel right and good and will continue to do so and hopefully they'll start to feel better and better as I get stronger and stronger, are the things I say and do, the things I think and feel, the things I hope and dream every waking or sleeping hour that are driven by the amazing machine that ticks away every second of everyday and the reason that I'm still here right now.. my precious heart that never let me down after all the strain I put it under and after all the damage I could have caused.. A vital organ that will strengthen because I grow to love it more and more.