The end of this journey

My time in Ireland seems to be done
10 months later and it's time to have some fun
Who would have known that the end was so near
It came so soon and for that I can only cheer
As suddenly as this journey started, it has also ended
My heart and soul are strong and definitely mended
I breathe the relief, which is the start of what I'm feeling
As I'm blessed for having seen the power of self-healing

A strength I never new was within me, so strong
The power came from somewhere and guided me all along
That power was me, this person as she sits right here
My own work and determination to never avoid that fear
The fear of what had past and of what was to come
And the grief for not being weak and not wanting to run
A word only has meaning when it's experienced to the full
And the word "strength" now reveals it's potential and it brightens the dull

Who wants to constantly feel more grief, anger and pain?
Only those who choose to use it, whilst playing this game
It eventually makes those forgotten cells feel so alive
Always looking, searching and feeling that need to thrive
Because as I am a thriver and not a survivor, at heart
As those who choose to only survive, linger from the start
The difference being that surviving is only barely living
And thriving is being that potential to heal and then start giving

I can now be so certain that living is for me
And that love has made me open my heart and feel free
A love so unconditional as my heart beats for everyone
It also beats for me, as I've learned my life isn't done
Who would have thought that I'd get to see this day
As I sit here, one last time, on my blog and pray
Pray to myself for my strength, wisdom and love
And pray that the universe will support me from above

A journey to heaven after a journey to hell
I wouldn't have missed it, as I now know so well
Amazing emotions have revealed amazing depth
That all came to me, a I stopped and I slept
A short summary of the things I've come to learn
As I've worked so extremely hard, this is what I earn
The list is so short is comparisson to it all
But I need to vent this, this is my final call

I've learned to love myself and be as I am
I've learned to heal the soul and always give a damn
I've learned to reach and never stop wanting to be free
I've learned to look beyond what the eye can see
I've learned to feel who I am, in every fibre that's there
I've learned to face facts and to never truly scare
I've learned to cry all those tears that are mine
I've learned to polish my diamond and always let it shine

Look up at the sky and see that star
Jump up and be it, is an achievement by far
Reach out and touch them all, as it is your right
Open your arms and hug them; it's the end of the fight
So spread your wings now and join those skies
See there are no more limits, as beyond is where it lies
Where it will lead, only the universe can know
But one certainty remains, that this star is ready to go..

One more tear that is shed here today
Just one more, for the joy of forever being Fay xxx