This is not worth reading

I'm still in a pissed off mood.. I'm just f*cking sad and frustrated that this is happening to me. It can't be.. I'm thinking too much now.. I know I'm driving myself mad.. I'm driving myself round the bend, and I'm only making myself hate myself more and more.. Why why why.. It's so annoying. I don't want to have to deal with this all.. Can I not just click my fingers for it all to be gone? Is that possible? I'm not too sure.. I reckon it's not possible, but imagine it were to be possible.

I'm not even thinking about what I'm typing right now, this is just a load sh*t.. not worth reading.. and I don't care. Such bad form, such a shit life, a shit body and a shit head to match, with shit food inside of me.. and I have to be stuffing more into me soon. When will it stop? When am I allowed to stop stuffing my face with all this food? Surely, I've been doing so well the past days, that I can now just stop it? I think I might be able.. O I just need to do something to get my frustration out.. I have to take it out on something.. this typing is not really relieving anything..