The Cake in the Oven

The medication for Anorexia..
Sunday evening I was feeling very normal, I was a human being and I was just keeping myself occupied with other things, than Anna. I was fine and I was on planet earth (which is a nice place to be). And all of a sudden.. I realized that I hadn't focused on Anna for hours.. and I started to panic.. I thought.."oh no, I haven't done anything in hours to fight against Anna, what am I going to do.. I need to fight her.. I need to be doing something, be it crying, be it feeling depressed, be it eating, be it not eating, be it writing, be it stressing.. anything".. But I wasn't doing any of this.. Hummm, weird. So then, I started worrying if I was doing enough to fight her..

A great metaphor from Diann (it that's correct English, not too sure..): "Whenever you bake a cake, you put it in the oven, and then it needs to bake for a certain period of time.. you don't keep on taking it out.. or else it will never be a nice bake.."
Get the point? With therapy things are recovering and healing beneath the surface.. Regularly things are added, issues are dealt with, nutrition is being consumed and put to good work, things are realized, thing are clarified and then let to set, to progress. The process of healing and recovery is still ongoing, but underneath. You're not always aware of it.. But that's good. It will come to the surface as soon as it's ready, and will be dealt with in a certain manner and then left to stew again. All these "goings-on beneath the surface" without us realizing it, gives us time to build up strength and energy to deal with the next "round".

So it's all working.. even if I'm not aware of it (that goes for the sessions with Diann as well as acupuncture as well as all the food I'm constantly consuming).
My final question on this subject: "What more could I be doing?".. Diann's Answer: "The best medication for Anorexia, is food (and time).. and you're eating, so no stress.. there's nothing more you can do right now..".. And I breathe a sigh of relief..
I'm just a cake in the oven..