Ralph is his name

Another treatment of the old acupuncture this morning.
Mentally preparing myself for it, yesterday evening.. My own "big day out". That seems to be such a big deal, when really it's so straight forward and easy. I'm still obviously not all that able to go out and about without feeling "zoned-out" and having the "out of body feeling". Strange, but it is getting less and less each week.

Going to acupuncture each week, does make me feel like I'm still independent, even though it's just such a little thing. It's because when you don't do anything, day in day out.. and whenever you DO do something or go somewhere it's always with someone (mam usually), it can make you feel like you're not capable of doing anything alone anymore. However going down to the acupuncture every Wednesday morning, by myself, just proves that I am still capable even though it takes a lot out of me.. as I just mentioned I have mentally gear myself up for it the day before. And when I'm back, I'm so glad to be in the house again, so glad to be back in my comfort-zone, so glad to make some tea and to be able to have a lie down if I want.. (weird, isn't it, the little things that suddenly seem so precious and mean so much..who'd have thought..).

Anyhow, a taxi-ride, a bit of chit-chat with the driver and I found myself sitting in the office talking to Mr. Acupuncturist again. By the way, his name is Ralph, so I think I'll be calling him that from now on..
I was pretty woozy, dizzy and fuzzy and not really totally "on the earth", but it was ok. We talked about the last week, and how the acupuncture effected me. I told him briefly about all the emotions, aches and pains that I had the day after the last treatment, and that was bound to happen, he reckons. Which is good. It means that the acupuncture is working. He asked if I got some clarification from all the feelings that suddenly cropped up. He asked if I learned anything from it. I told him that everything that came up, was dealt with on Monday with Diann and that it helped so much and I was able to work through a lot of things, I got more clarification as well as realization. We didn't discuss it in depth because it's all still pretty "raw" at the moment, and I'm still only dealing with it myself. But, when I feel I'm able for it, we can discuss certain issues in the weeks to come. These were his words by the way, so he didn't pressure me, which I was pleased about.

We had a good chat, and I just said in passing "isn't the human body such a strange thing".. He picked up on my comment, and before I knew it, we were talking about spirituality and the world and the human soul.. Well, he was doing the talking, I was doing the listening. He said some real interesting stuff, quite complex and I could only register half of what he was saying. But what he was trying to say was,
that not only should we cherish the beauty surrounding us but we should also cherish the beauty inside of us; the beauty that everybody has and that everybody can make shine. It's not only our surroundings that should make us happy and reflect who we are, what we feel and what we believe, but that this powerful and strong shining from within can do just as much..if not, it can do more.. Realizing this, finding this, and making it shine..That's what this journey is all about.
(This is the same thing Diann said to me, when I first went to see her.. the shining of the diamond..everyone has the ability to shine, and everybody deserves to shine).

There is so much more to all this that meets the eye. I reckon, down the line, I will learn so much from him..(by the way, he has these intense beady eyes with the kind of eye contact that makes you feel like he's looking into my soul..freaky hey!!) It can all seem very "floaty" and "off the wall" and not everybody believes in spirituality, (I've thought it was always pretty interesting and sometimes fascinating, to a certain point), but I'm open to whatever comes my way and I'm willing to let this journey guide me in the directions I feel that are right. I will trust my intuition, trust in myself and use myself as my own guide.
(Sorry to get a little side-tracked there..)

The treatment itself, wasn't as intense as last week. He said he would "give me a break" this week. It was so nice, and so relaxing. It lasted for nearly 1 hour and I just floated the whole entire time. Now and then I felt like I was looking down on myself or that I was being held upside down (that's so strange..quite relaxing and funny at the same time) and sometimes it was like I was being plugged into a socket and could feel electricity buzzing through my body.. It was the first time that I actually felt that.. It only lasted a few seconds (unfortunately), but was so cool.
I should be nice and chilled now for the next few days, because of it..

When I was back home, 2 hours later, I was absolutely wrecked. My legs were like bricks.. I could hardly walk and I felt sick aswell.. So I just lay down for a few hours. The treatment was obviously still working.

All in all, it was a real good session. I enjoyed it so much and learned a lot. Such an interesting healing method (and the needles aren't freaking me out as much anymore either) that will give me so much more than regular bowl movement and a larger appetite.. Aren't the Chinees wise fellows for once discovering this.. Go China!!