Therapy+Acupuncture=Fay

It's Wednesday afternoon which means I went to have my acupuncture done this afternoon. All was fine and dandy with Mr. Acupuncturist.

Beforehand we had a short chat. He was very pleased with my progress. I didn't feel the need to hang me head in shame this week, like I had done last because I wasn't taking his herbs and because I struggled with all the food..(well, I'm always struggling, but I just act "as if" I'm not struggling.. I could be a professional actress by the end of all this..haha)..slightly side-tracked..sorry..

Was I taking my herbs? Yes.
Was my appetite increasing? Yes.
Did the herbs take the edge off the emotions? Yes.
Am I feeling more hunger? Yes.
Am I eating all I should be eating? Yes.
So what more could I be doing? Nothing really. So still trotting along.

He wanted to look at my tongue as well. This was strange.. He told me that the tongue is the map to the body. So just by looking at it, you can see if all the organs are functioning as they should be. My tongue is as to be expected, he said. He could see that my digestive system is very poor. It's not working properly. But that's normal, and the Chinese herbs that he has prescribed are helping it to slowly get it back in to shape. He checked it the very first time I went to see him, which was 2 months ago. And since then, by looking at my tongue, he can see that there has been an improvement. Only ever so slightly, but there is progress.

He then wanted to know if Diann was pleased with the progress I'm making and how things were developing. Well, Diann is happy with the effect the acupuncture has. The combination of the 2 works so well. Because the acupuncture releases stress and anxiety, stimulates energy and it releases certain things that have been brewing, certain emotions, troubles and issues that I have never dealt with before. Things come into my head during the week, and with Diann I can talk about them, deal with it all, figure things out and clear my head. Then I have to work it all through for myself, and that's this blog.. and the whole process keeps on going..

The herbs and the treatment are not only good for all the mental issues, but also the psychical side of things. My energy levels are increasing.. sometimes it feels like they are increasing too much.. It's mostly mental energy though.. but psychically it's starting as well (not how awful it feels to admit it..I can't deny it and would only be fooling myself by doing so). The treatment also increases my appetite and Diann then adds food onto my daily menu.
The relationship between the two different types of treatment is so close. They are so "linked". I'm only starting to see that now..
An example.. Last week when I went to see the doctor and she told me I was resting too much, the thing I said was: "But it's my choice..I've decided that this is the best and quickest way for me to recover "... I just blurted it out, without even thinking about it.. And this answer I gave her (maybe it was a little cheeky.. but I don't really care..), was influenced by the therapy and acupuncture.. Why? Because the first time I went to acupuncture Ralph told me to say a mantra each day "it's my choice..today I choose.." and then I fill it in with whatever I want. I still do this, everyday. I write down what it is I choose to do today (sometimes I choose to be grumpy, sometimes I choose to enjoy my good mood, sometimes I choose to stay in bed..). Ralph "told" (or advised) me to do this and Diann "told" (or recommended) me to rest whenever I need it. They both guided me, but it was my choice, my decision. I'm making myself better, with their help..
I can sometimes forget so easily how much control I'm having over my recovery. But then when I give the doctor an answer like that, I shock myself. It just proves to me that I DO know that I'm controlling this, I'm just not always aware. But that's fine and I'm just glad that it all makes so much sense and fits together so well.

I told Ralph about what I said to the doctor and he was proud of me.. I could tell. What a turn around. He gave me a pat on the back.. And then I gave him one, because apparently not all Acupuncturists are all too familiar or keen on treating people with eating disorders, but he can. That's what Diann said anyhow and I was pleased to tell him that.. So at the end of our little chat, we both had big heads and had just gotten a bit of an ego-boost.. He was making Fay feel really good, and Anna bad but I just let it be and forced myself to see that it's not only nice to GIVE compliments but it can also be nice to RECEIVE compliments..