Confidence

A new found confidence that was never there before
Something suddenly appealing only wanting for more
From one day to the next an issue that is solved
A bubble that once felt as if deflated and dissolved
It was gone or lost and I thought I'd never own it
Now I see it wasn't meant to last and I could have known it
That all would soon be familiar but a little more special
It comes with health and vibrancy for that to be made official
With confidence there comes a warmth, a glow and a smile
And nothing is no longer impossible as I go that extra mile
It needed to be taken away in order for me to see
That something shattered can always be rebuilt within me
With confidence there comes a field of certainty and potential
And the desire of a lifetime that shouldn't be confidential
To look someone in the eye without fear or hesitation
Is something that gradually adds to the excitement and creation
As the saying goes: "You don't know what you've got till it's gone"
It's so well-known and it's sung in many a song
It's so true however not so real until it hits you in the face
When things you took for granted are gone without a trace
7 months ago I sat with Diann as she confirmed my fate
She said my confidence was crushed by Anna, my so-called "mate"
That ripped me to shreds just those very words she told
As I was convinced without confidence, traveling was too bold
So it was never going to come back to me as I closed that door
On living with confidence that used to ooze from my every pour
But both levels of confidence I've had, were at different stages
And they seem like different lifetimes, the time-space is almost ages
That was way back then and yet really not that long ago
Instead I haven't gained in years, but still a lot to show
Nothing is indicating an aging in numbers as I'm still 25
But never before I've had such a passion to keep on feeling alive
I can now look at a stranger and not want to crumble to bits
People can see what and who I am and I don't feel the pits
I never want to loose this confidence I'm starting the gain
But I never will as I continue to simply play out this game