Let me be me ;)

I am who am, if you like it or not
It's me, I'm here, this is all I've got
You can be angry, you can be crazy
You can be frustrated and call me lazy
But this is me, you have to just realize
I'll not the person that you should despise
Not anymore and hopefully never again
It's just one soul aching for a pen
Why can't you learn to accept?
And see me as someone who chose to reject?
The resisting doesn't help me or you
So why let it make us both feel blue
I trying to be who I am, no matter the day
That's a fact, no matter what I weigh
I might not see through all my thinking
But someday you won't control my sinking
Let me be, because life is already hard enough
You aren't dependable, when the going gets tough
So should I listen and please tell me why
As you can't be trusted and all you do is lie
Can't you see that you'll be leaving soon?
Even I can't yet lock you out of my room
There's really no point, just open your eyes
And see what we can be, something in deguise
Together we can be but not on your terms
The rules have will change as the table turns
Sooner or later you'll see me for me
And you'll feel fine and let me be free
You can still try but I have the upper hand
My life is mine and I'll continue to stand
Try to control me and make me a drained mess
Give it your all because I couldn't care less
Let it go, stop pushing and let me just be
I'm not a bad person, try look and see
All you've been encouraging and praising
Wasn't me, it wasn't beautiful or amazing
A strong person can't be defeated
You know that now and it will be repeated
It's effort for nothing, so it's not fulfilling
Judgemental and defensive is you, and is it thrilling?
I don't think so, but you did try hard
You'll never win as I slowly bring down your guard..