Within and without

Turning towards yourself, looking inside or facing the other way
Placing yourself outside of you, but staring at yourself today
Resisting the outsiders as they try and want to look within
Shouting from the inside then only makes the outside look grim

The outside wants so badly to see what's behind those eyes
But the inside isn't participating in what's there and what often lies
It brings everything to a halt or you might hope it eventually will
And yet that never seems to happen as you wait, even still

Really this isn't what you want because it doesn't feel that nice
As acting to shut off the outside, is going against your own advice
Turning away whilst being surrounded all the time and fully present
Could be the best of both worlds, but when has "best" ever felt unpleasant?

Seeing that turning, as it's happening but not so obvious or apparent
Means a boundary is made or maybe a front that's no longer transparent
A forceful encounter with either yourself, a soul, a feeling or a situation
Only being made not to flow because of the other minor frustration

Getting caught-up and deciding that's simply the way you'll have to be
Brings everything down with the material and mental walls only you can see
Suddenly an adjustment is made by you and the world that you admire
And that moment of inward doubt now belongs to the past and the soul feels higher

After having a vision of such doubt, you suddenly see more clear
That another encounter in that same manner is never anything to fear
Because as you look within whilst not turning away from what or who you adore
Both are worlds you can handle and you can see you've grown even more